Bittersweet Life...

Saturday, June 19, 2004

i wont be updating this blog again...for a few days onli lah. dun worry lah...hehe. me goin to holidays. not tt far..onli kota tinggi. those who dunno where tt is, it's in johor. not far rite?

cant wait for the trip! yay! hopefully, i shall have a lot of fun there. fun, and fun onli! well... ill update u when i get back. goin off on mon morn. u mite be wondering y cant i tell u peeps tmr. this is coz... tmr i wont be bloggin. me wanna pack tmr.. hehe. no time lah tmr... so ill be back on weds. but probably ill blog on thurs aitez?

had a quarrel with my bro yesterday. yeah, over a stupid matter. but wat the heck. i wanted to watch this hindustan movie, but he wanted to watch charmed. so, being me, i wasnt happy bout it coz i was there in front of the tv first. after moments of yelling at each other, he said sth which i wrote on my blog, sth bout him being lazy or fat or sth. remember? yeah, so he actually read my bloggie..dunno wat to feel. hey bro, if u're reading this, u noe wat? i dun care wat u feel or wanna say to me. for all i care, this blog thingy is for me to express myself, coz nobody will be willing to listen to me. god! if u ever wanna tell mom and dad bout this, go ahead. im not afraid. there's nth to hide, coz wateva tt i've written is how i feel. this is ME. if they ever found out, gd lah. if they wanna scold me go ahead. they would juz be unreasonable, tt's all. hey bro, all the things tt i wrote bout u in previous posts, i was frustrated at u. yeah, i do noe tt it IS unfair to u, but u gotta noe ur sis better than tt. i noe u gonna me...i dun care if u do. u mite have everi rite to. so wateva aitez? ok, this is so not me to say this, but i really appreciate u as my bro. i really wanna thank u for all the things tt u did for me. sorry if i really had hurt u over and over again. i dunnoe how u judge me, or how u wanna judge me. i dun care. i juz wanna get this to u: i dun hate u at all. im really sorry. i mean wat i've said, k?

ok, for those of u who are readin this, i so noe it doesnt relate to u. sorry if it like bore u or sth. oh yeah, it's like 50-50 tt my bro will read this. so, erm.. sir hafidz, can u do me a favour? can u like hint2 to him and find out if he had read this or not? k? can..? plz...? i mean, it's like u're the onli person who like read my blog and talked to my bro. haiz... if u dun want, it's ok. coz i noe it isnt any of ur concern either.

ok... tt was...erm, hard for me? i dunno... so let's get bcak to the kota tinggi trip. so cant really wait! hehe... i muz go shoppin this time. argh... it's killin me not to buy stuff lately.. wat's happening to me anyways? i've been wanting to buy this and tt. haiz...stop me someone!

so, gonna update when i get back ya? to khairi, im goin 4 a few days, so, i wont be smsing u for those days k? hopefully, i shall sms u when i get back.. miss me ya? hehe... hey, peeps, miss me too aitez? hehe...

Smashed into pieces at 6/19/2004 08:46:00 PM